SUMMER UPDATE!
Hello everyone,
I am sorry I have completely disappeared. Its summer, and I have limited internet access. : ( But I dont mind… It makes me appreciate life a little more.
Anyway, I’d thought I’d take a minute and share what’s been going on. I’ve been working almost non stop. I’m waitressing this summer in Lakeside, OH at the Patio Restaurant. It’s an easy job, and I get good tips… Though I’m not making as much as I’d like to be.
For the most part, I’ve been really happy this summer, which is due to one person in particular, who makes me quite happy. My mom always says ‘someone can’t make you happy, only you can,’ so I guess I should say that I am very happy WITH this person. I like him a lot. A lot a lot.
But at the same time, I’ve been pretty sad this summer. There have been moments where I’ve been overwhelmed with the impending sense of loss. My grandfather has been fighting cancer for a few years now, and he had been doing okay since… Lately though, he’s been getting blood infections, and trying new meds and treatment that have really worn him out. It’s so heartbreaking to see him in this state. It has recently hit me that he might not be getting better…
I had a dream the other night. In this dream, my family came together and began taking turns telling my grandpa how much we loved him and how much we’ve learned from him. And on that day, he was okay. He could do everything he used to be able to do… like he wasn’t sick at all. But we all knew that this was only happened because he was going to be gone by the next day.
Because of this dream, I’ve decided that I do need to tell him how much I love him, and how much I appreciate and admire and look up to him, because who knows how much longer I’ll have a chance to.
There was one night, over forth of july weekend that I’ll remember for the rest of my life. Michael and I were outside on my lake house at night taking pictures of stars. My grandpa had been sleeping on the couch on the porch. I was sitting out by the lake, looking back at the house, glowing and warm, and noticed my grandpa… he had woken up, and I watched him through the big front windows just slowly stand up and hobble back into the house. I’m not really sure why this image struck me so much. It was like watching a film. It was beautiful. I guess the lake house has always symbolized family to me, and my grandpa has been the heart of our family. All of my family was there this weekend, and it just culminated into this poignant moment.
I’ll never forget that.
Anyway. There you have it. I’ll be back later.
-sar
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