my bad habits.
Sometimes, I get scared.
It scares me when I start to care about someone… I think I’m afraid of getting hurt, or being left. Or just scared of showing my whole self. Right now, I have no reason to be afraid… it’s kinda just a little tic or habit. I don’t really know how to explain it. I think a lot… I play the “what if” game. There’s constant doubt that whirls around my head….for NO reason. And then I get upset. Not at anyone in particular. Just at myself. For being the way I am.
I don’t want to be needy. I don’t want to be clingy or annoying or insecure. I want to be free and carefree and happy-go-lucky….bleh. I also want to write again. Not really working at the moment.
that is all.
1 year ago • Notes